-Jonnikins’ Way Of Living-

Leo installation this Friday,I so hope I fall sick or something cause I don’t want to attend…….

Finally I have the strength to do something other than sleeping.This past two days is like torture to me.High fever,severe headache,muscle aches,no appetite…… I thought I was going to die,lol.I didn’t even have the mood to watch TV or even reply any of my fon messages cause my fingers were aching so much.My mom thought it might be dengue,I surely hope that it’s not cause I’m deadly afraid of needles.

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So I’m going to school tomorrow,hopefully my sickness won’t resurface again.

You look at me,
Like you always do.
You don’t have a clue.
You smile at me,
You hug me,
But you don’t know I want you.
You play with me,
You flirt with me,
You tell me all your secrets.
I’m always the one you run to,
but to you I’m just your friend.

Don’t say I love you,
Don’t say you need me,
Don’t say I trust you,
My heart cant take it.
Don’t say you want me,
Don’t say you miss me,
Don’t hurt me.
Don’t say you love me.

Ooooh ooooh no… no.. nooo.

I try my best to rid these thoughts,
Of you and I it’s so hard.
When come to me,
I fall back on my knees.
I learned to hate love.
You kiss me on the cheek,
You say you’d never make it without me.
It’s getting harder everyday.
Please don’t say to me,

Don’t hurt me.
Don’t say you love me.

My heart cant take it.
I love you so much.
But you don’t see me.
I hate love.

If there’s a Bakat this year I’m going to join it! Muahahaha,I’m not kidding.I already know what song I would sing.Promise.

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Too bad there’s not going to be one! Muahahahah!I’m evil!!!!

Getting sick sucks! Big time.I missed school today and now I’ne got to face the exams tomorrow,hopefully the teacher will let me take it or I’ll get a zero…. I can’t even focus on studying right now,stupid headache.Arghh….

I’m so tired of wanting to have things that will never be mine…………..

Went for my first driving lesson for P just now,I made so much stupid mistake.All are too embarassing for me to mention here,haha.Can’t wait for the next one! Driving is sooo fun!! (for now,hehe)

My results suck,that’s nothing speical.I’m so depressed right now!!! WARHAHRWJ%#!^#!^Y!#^!#!!! I think need to punch the wall and scream till th walls explode!!! Can’t even get good marks on my ENGLISH PAPER!!!! I’m so pissed at myself,so useless……everyone is improving and I’m still stuck.Eeewww……

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-BTW,do you know that people who cheats will get what they deserve at the end? What goes around comes around,remember that.

Yay tomorrow’s Bio’s exam! No sleep tonight padapapapa, no sleep tonight piu piu gebaboomm!!! bla bla bla.

-Shanidda stop looking at my profile!